Chris Rockrecently expressed that he’s let people “walk all over” him since his childhood.HIs revelation came on the Jan. 12 episode ofFly on the Wall with Dana Carvey and David Spade, two months beforeWill Smithsmacked the comedian across the face during Sunday’s Academy Awards.On the podcast, Rock, 57, recounted being “bullied ridiculously” throughout his childhood. He said, “Half of the bullying was because I was just a little guy. Then I got bused to school and the bullying was because I was little guy and I was Black. I was getting double bullied.“He said he eventually resorted to taking matters into his own hands.For more on the Will Smith-Chris Rock incident at the Oscars, listen below to our daily podcast on PEOPLE Every Day.“I went home, I put a brick in a book bag — this is like a legendary story in my neighborhood — I swung that sh– and smacked the guy in the face with this brick and stomped on him, Joe Pesci-style, to the point that we thought he might die,” Rock told hosts David Spade and Dana Carvey.Later on, with the help of therapy, Rock realized the long-term impact the event had on his life.“Long story short, from that day on, as my shrink puts it to me, you have been scared to be angry ever since,” he said. “The guy you saw was bending over backwards to be nice because I was so scared of my anger.“Chris Rock.Matt Winkelmeyer/GettyRock recalled that his therapist wanted him to move past the incident because “this guy brought something out in you and you’re so scared of that thing coming out of you again that you let the whole world walk all over you. Your friends walk over you, your friends walk over you, your female relationships — everybody just f—s you over.“TheSaturday Night Livealum said he is now able “get angry” and can better process his emotions.“I’m not scared of letting people know how I feel about certain things,” he shared. “Now, I can say, ‘Hey I don’t like what you said to me,’ without losing my head, without hitting someone on the head with a frickin' brick.“Atthe Oscarson Sunday, the comedian made a joke aboutJada Pinkett Smith’s hair, saying in part, “Jada, I love ya.G.I. Jane 2, can’t wait to see ya.“The comment was about Pinkett Smith’s hair matchingDemi Moore’s shaved head in the movieG.I. Jane. Pinkett Smith recently opened up about her bald head, revealing it was a result of heryears-long struggle with alopecia. Pinkett Smith was visibly unamused, rolling her eyes from her seat.Seconds later, Smith walked onstage and approached Rock,smacking him in front of the audienceand millions watching at home. Back at his table, Smith shouted to a stunned Rock, “Keep my wife’s name out of your f—ing mouth,” then remained seated with Pinkett Smith at his table for the rest of the night.Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE’s free weekly newsletterto get the biggest news of the week delivered to your inbox every Friday.When Smith won Best Actor later in the ceremony, he apologized to the Academy and his fellow nomineesbut did not mention Rock. In his tearful speech, he spoke about acting out of love and protection, saying, “Love makes you do crazy things.“On Monday, the actor issuedanother apologyon Instagram,writingin part, “I would like to publicly apologize to you, Chris. I was out of line and I was wrong. I am embarrassed and my actions were not indicative of the man I want to be. There is no place for violence in a world of love and kindness.“Rock has not yet spoken out since the incident. Hedeclined to press charges, and reps for the comedian have not responded to PEOPLE’s request for comment.
Chris Rockrecently expressed that he’s let people “walk all over” him since his childhood.
HIs revelation came on the Jan. 12 episode ofFly on the Wall with Dana Carvey and David Spade, two months beforeWill Smithsmacked the comedian across the face during Sunday’s Academy Awards.
On the podcast, Rock, 57, recounted being “bullied ridiculously” throughout his childhood. He said, “Half of the bullying was because I was just a little guy. Then I got bused to school and the bullying was because I was little guy and I was Black. I was getting double bullied.”
He said he eventually resorted to taking matters into his own hands.
For more on the Will Smith-Chris Rock incident at the Oscars, listen below to our daily podcast on PEOPLE Every Day.
“I went home, I put a brick in a book bag — this is like a legendary story in my neighborhood — I swung that sh– and smacked the guy in the face with this brick and stomped on him, Joe Pesci-style, to the point that we thought he might die,” Rock told hosts David Spade and Dana Carvey.
Later on, with the help of therapy, Rock realized the long-term impact the event had on his life.
“Long story short, from that day on, as my shrink puts it to me, you have been scared to be angry ever since,” he said. “The guy you saw was bending over backwards to be nice because I was so scared of my anger.”
Chris Rock.Matt Winkelmeyer/Getty
Rock recalled that his therapist wanted him to move past the incident because “this guy brought something out in you and you’re so scared of that thing coming out of you again that you let the whole world walk all over you. Your friends walk over you, your friends walk over you, your female relationships — everybody just f—s you over.”
TheSaturday Night Livealum said he is now able “get angry” and can better process his emotions.
“I’m not scared of letting people know how I feel about certain things,” he shared. “Now, I can say, ‘Hey I don’t like what you said to me,’ without losing my head, without hitting someone on the head with a frickin' brick.”
Atthe Oscarson Sunday, the comedian made a joke aboutJada Pinkett Smith’s hair, saying in part, “Jada, I love ya.G.I. Jane 2, can’t wait to see ya.”
The comment was about Pinkett Smith’s hair matchingDemi Moore’s shaved head in the movieG.I. Jane. Pinkett Smith recently opened up about her bald head, revealing it was a result of heryears-long struggle with alopecia. Pinkett Smith was visibly unamused, rolling her eyes from her seat.
Seconds later, Smith walked onstage and approached Rock,smacking him in front of the audienceand millions watching at home. Back at his table, Smith shouted to a stunned Rock, “Keep my wife’s name out of your f—ing mouth,” then remained seated with Pinkett Smith at his table for the rest of the night.
Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE’s free weekly newsletterto get the biggest news of the week delivered to your inbox every Friday.
When Smith won Best Actor later in the ceremony, he apologized to the Academy and his fellow nomineesbut did not mention Rock. In his tearful speech, he spoke about acting out of love and protection, saying, “Love makes you do crazy things.”
On Monday, the actor issuedanother apologyon Instagram,writingin part, “I would like to publicly apologize to you, Chris. I was out of line and I was wrong. I am embarrassed and my actions were not indicative of the man I want to be. There is no place for violence in a world of love and kindness.”
Rock has not yet spoken out since the incident. Hedeclined to press charges, and reps for the comedian have not responded to PEOPLE’s request for comment.
source: people.com
